Normally people would put a link on their xanga that would bring them to this sort of website. Their "real" blog.

Well, I'm going to be against the grain and cool... and do the exact opposite. Maybe I'll switch someday in the future. But I kinda like having a xanga once again. Makes me feel like I'm not 18 and I'm not moving out of my house in 2 months.



You'll find me here: http://goosness.xanga.com/

I choose..

Today I listened to this song for the first time in a while.

And it got me wondering. I pray so much for ones around me.... but how often is the person who I need to pray for the most.... me?

Sometimes I forget all about this:

Matthew 7

Judging Others

¹ “Do not judge, or you too will be judged. ² For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.

³ “Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? ⁴ How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? ⁵ You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.

Sometimes I forget that my life is too crumbled sometimes to really help anyone else. And I realize why every day I need to rededicate my life to Christ and make the decision to live for Him and no-one or nothing else. I don't like to judge. I beat myself up when I do, because it's the opposite of what Jesus was. So many people label Christians as judgmental and arrogant wanderers. It hurts to hear that said to me sometimes. We all make mistakes... yeah. There's no way we can live a perfect life. We will judge, we will condemn, we will label.... it happens. It's a human thing to do (thank you Adam and Eve... bravo). But does that mean we should just invite it into our lives? No way. I won't do that. I want people to ask me why I'm different... I want people to realize that my God is not a judgmental God, but He is a loving God. And that He is everything we need to survive.

I want people around me to see they don't need to live in constant worry and in constant self-disgust.

I want people around me to see they are loved by the Creator of the world.

Who wouldn't want that?

I refuse to invite hatred, self-disgust, harm, judgment, and isolation into my heart.

I choose Him. His love and mercy. His everlasting grace and the everlasting life he offers as a gift to us, His children.

I choose Jesus.

Craziness.

A lot's on my little mind. Would you like to know a few of the many things? Okay.

• New old bakery equipment. New, because it recently became mine. Old, because some of it is older than five times my age. Pretty cool.
  
• Knitting hats. Something I should do more often... yet it's kind-of dumb that I'd get the urge just as winter ends.
  
• Wet socks. I went on a walk a while ago and ended up swinging at the Madrid Playground for about an hour. While walking back, I stupidly stepped in a puddle while watching birds. I thought only Anne did that sort of thing.
• Early mornings. Those 4 days a week when I get up extra early to work in the bakery? Yeah... I adore those mornings.
  
• Olives. One, because I love eating them. and Two, because she is such a sweet girl. (confused yet?)
• Turkey Burgers. Cause I'm gonna have one for dinner.
• Basketball. Cause I'm gonna go watch some of my best friends shoot some hoops tonight. This makes me happy. :)

Things I'm Thankful For:



#27. A daddy who loves to bless me. Despite the person I am sometimes.


#28. A college that wants me to be a part of their campus this fall. I think I'll accept their invitation.

Rambling.

Scoopuccino's has really become my second home.
Considering I spend more time here than 1880 State Highway.... it doesn't surprise me.

I love the people here, my boss(es), the cooks, the dishwashers, the other waitresses and waiters... I really do love it here. I am so thankful God had me hold out all summer long for a legit job, as it certainly has paid off.

Just sayin'.... I love it here.


Things I'm Thankful For:



#25. Good friends. Plain friends you come by often. But true, good friends? Not so often. But I've been blessed with more than I could ever ask for.


#26. A double oven. I don't use it all the time.... but.... it still makes me happy to have.